Friday 29 May 2009

I am What I am!!

A thin silver lining along the rectangle border, heavily coated with Zinc on the back, curvatures of flowers on the top and bottom, this is what I am. Most of the people claim that I beautify them, of course when they look into me. Well coming to personification from vagueness I am a mirror. I take pride of my silver lining and the characteristics what people like in me.

But I could never get a chance to see myself. I was always with a curious mind to know what really is there in the shiny glass material of mine, what do I constitute how do I look like, what color I bore. Well, many efforts were in vain to look at myself and almost to managed to save a break midway through my body, only realizing that I needed help of a thing like me to tell me how am I.

I started moving away and reached a place where I found many mirrors around. I started mingling with them to get my real self. I went close to a mirror and started looking at it. I was seeing something in green color, with streaks of blackish brown. I was staring at it and I observed the color changed after sometime me being the same. This gave me a confusion, I could not make out whether this is how I am or these are the characteristics of the other mirror. I did a similar exercise with few others, got really randomized and tried.

I came to a corner closed my eyes and was just skeptical to see anything else. I was seeing dark black and nothing else. Well for a moment I felt this is the best part of mine, at least I am consistent with this, I am always black to myself. After sometime I heard a voice saying, Open your eyes I will let you know what you are. I was very skeptical, I just don’t want to hurt myself again and see this darkness. I replied, I am sorry I have already lost most of the interest. The voice replied, “you are saying you have some interest left, great! Let me help you then.” I was dazed with this line, in fact it was totally different meaning of the same words what I uttered with some other meaning.

I thought I’ll put forward my concern, I stated my experiences and I said I can’t trust you. what if you move away in the middle. What if you change your colors? I will get confused again. The voice replied, “Listen, neither I will move, nor I have any color by myself. So there is no reason you should fear. I promise you to let you get what you are thriving for.”

I opened my eyes, and I was gazing at the mirror in front of me. I was in pale yellow color, with some shades of bluish green, I felt wow, I am really beautiful. I was really happy to see my true self. After a while I thought is this really true? At the same moment the color started changing. I shouted “See the color is changing, you promised me you will not change.” The voice replied, “It’s not me, it’s you who is changing”.

“oh! This thinking reflects the color is it.” I realized how my thoughts align to myself, how will one change with his thoughts. I started being consistent with my thoughts and so was the color. After sometime I saw the colors getting more brighter and beautiful. Before even I asked anything, the voice said, “If you improve yourself you look more beautiful.” These lines did some magic on me. I came out of the perception that I am not defined already, I need to define myself and build my own colors. The moment I said this my color was going light and I was turning transparent. I could feel the piousness I was seeing in the transparency and yes in the process of building a true self, one will turn virtuous, I mean transparent. Once I reached this stage, I never had question on myself. I always knew “I am what I am”