I am a green colored marble, with crest of transverse wave inscribed, with a thin band of white and green mix. I am very smooth externally and if looked in you can see spread out spangles inside me. I exist with many other marbles around me and we keep moving along the time line.
Few people look at me and say, this is like universe, and some others say this is all crap. Though initially I was confused with these kind of mixed feelings, time taught me to believe in myself and started believing that I am universe for a few.
At times I feel alone, last time when I felt I moved towards another marble to my side. It was a pale yellow one with a golden streak in it. Light was falling on me and the other marble was reacting to it. I started getting warmth from the light, the other marble moved itself to decrease the intensity of heat on me. It was soothing and I was feeling pleasant. I was about to get more close to the marble, someone poured us into a big jar.
I missed it, in fact missed it forever. When I saw the marbles around me, some were looking at me so differently, as if I am nothing and some were not even minding my presence. It was a hard scene to take on and as it was jar I could not move away easily. I tried my level best, I just couldn’t do anything about it. There was light on me many a times and I had to manage the heat by myself. It was a lonely scene and yet I had no water to get out as tears, as the heat was high and my surrounding marbles hated wetness.
Well I started being for myself and making myself ready for a marble who will look again the universe in me. Over a period of time few of the marbles left me and some came closer; the jar was moved.
It was easy with the new marbles for me to see the stars in them and understand their spangles. Slowly the count of marbles seeing universe in me increased. Few were ones what I like and few were the ones who liked me. When I moved towards what I liked I stretched the vision of the one’s I liked. Well I almost damaged myself when I was longing for some marbles and some marbles had a similar fate with me. It was a state of confusion again and well I was not sure how to clear this…
Then there was a shuffle in the jar and it scattered each and every marble and I was no exception. But I wanted this shuffle to be the last one and wanted to attain stability. This time when I was moving I chose the marbles, I did even chose when I was leaving some. It was a quest to find the marbles which matter to my movement. Well this shuffle came in the right time and the heat I borne before made my choosing easier.
This exercise made my life simple. Spangles were shining more and universe was even more beautiful. Now when someone peeps through me, I relish to show the universe I posses in myself and the changes marbles made to it. Well to be even more specific the changes made by the “Marbles That Matter”
Thursday, 30 April 2009
Tuesday, 31 March 2009
“The Essential Quest”
“Wish I had someone for me.” Yet again time made me say this line. Though I don’t want to I end up saying this almost every time. Well I do want someone in my life who will never let me say this line.
I was walking back home with my head down, looking at the pebbles on the road. I heard someone shouting “watch out”, and next moment a vehicle crashed into me.
I don’t know what happened, but when I opened my eyes I was standing in front of a scenic landscape. To my right I found a person, whom portrayed as if he was waiting for me. I approached him and asked him, “Are you waiting for me ?” he said “Of course yes, you are the one who wanted to meet me, to solve your concern”
I was confused “I wanted? When did I, well instead of saying this, I was curious about the concern of mine he mentioned, I was eager to know what was that. ” I asked him “Which one you were referring to”, instantly replied with a smile on his face “your quest for someone”. I was not sure whether I was curious about it before or not but now, I was all anxious about it. I said “yes yes, I want to know”.
He told me “you are seeing this hill right, start running from here, by the time you reach the other side of the hill, you will know the someone.” He was still saying something I did not pay attention and no sooner I started running.
It was on soft meadows I was running with my shoe on. The way was really beautiful and I was not feeling the strain of running. I ran really hard but haven’t seen anyone till now. I felt for a while “What’s happening? I am not able to understand”. There was black color stone thrown on my face and it broke my nose. I was bleeding like hell and fell down on the floor. I was crying and seeking help. The same person appeared in front of me, I shouted at him “What is this ?”. He said “ you did not listen to me completely, I was about to tell you what’s all going to happen in this journey. You did not listen”.
I was scolding myself for this and requested him to tell me now. He said ”In this journey you will see many shelters. Your journey will complete if you reach any shelter throughout the journey. What will stop you from reaching them is these stones. Black and red stones will be thrown at you the moment you start seeing a shelter. Already you are hit by one, so if two more blacks finds your face your quest will be as it is forever. If you manage to reach anyone of the shelter your quest will end there.”
“I was surprised with the complexity here, honestly I was worried will I be able to reach anyone? I asked him”, is there any help I can get ? “He replied, yeah I will give you a word of wisdom every time you want for 3 times. You have to take one now, as I will not make my presence otherwise.” I was convinced and felt bad about my mistake. I asked him for the first word of wisdom. He replied “Never presuppose future without knowing present”. I got the message and I started running. The path was getting rocky and my shoe were torn off being old ones. I was running bare foot.
For the first time in this journey I saw a shelter, beautiful covered with golden color grass and I started proceeding towards it. I was able to smell a sweet odor as I proceeded towards this. I saw a red stone coming by and it did hit me. I took the pain as I felt the shelter is worth it. I took similar blows for 3 times and hurt myself enough. Ultimately I saw the shelter nearby and when about to reach I felt as If a bit away. I was surprised but there was no option left other than this. I just closed my eyes for a while and there was a black stone thrown at my face and this time it was a nasty blow. I was bleeding when I say myself and I was in tears. Perhaps when I looked at my foot, I saw sours on them, as I was running bare foot and the season was summer. I was hurt very badly and there was no option to call the other guy for the word of wisdom. He told me, ”Never be in haste”. I again started running and found another shelter almost at the top of the hill.
I was worried if the same thing is going to happen again, yet I started running towards it. The road turned stony and the climate hot. It was as if I was running on a hot pan with bear foot. Blood started oozing out of my feet and I did not stop running. I was exhausted the by the time I saw the shelter 20 ft away. I have taken few plunged towards and to my dismay the shelter disappeared. I was lost and a red stone was thrown at my face leaving a scar on the fore head. I was upset and almost at the stage of giving up, I was feeling as if I have lost in my life demeaned its purpose. Then I realized I have my last chance of word of wisdom. The moment I thought about it, he said, “The next shelter you find will be the end for your quest. ”
Well, I did not believe it blindly this time, I gave a thought to myself and said, I will give the best of mine for this. I recollected the first words he said. “by the time you reach the other side, you will know the someone”. I was focused this time. I was just looking at the way trusting that rest will follow. I saw ups and downs along the way and few luring shelters trying to distract what I have thought. I did slow down a bit but I became conscious the very next moment. I was clear what I want to do, reach the other end of the hill. There were few stones thrown at me but I managed to escape them.
I went down the hill I was able to see the road ending.. I was nearing what I want to. I saw a shelter to my right this time.. I did not stop as I wanted to complete the run. Surprisingly the shelter moved along with me and was at my right always.. I closed my eyes and started running.
I felt I reached the end of the road and I did. I had a deep sense of accomplishment. Though I didn’t get anything till now, it was a sense of possessing something that was making me happy. I was very light at my heart and thoughts and was feeling every moment precious. No wound did pain me now and no scar is burning. I was all happy to be there. As I observed my surroundings I found myself in front of “the” shelter. I walked in feeling fatigue and fell down on the bed over there.
I felt the warmth of a palm on my forehead and opened my eyes. It was her. As I opened my eyes, she said “Get well soon, I am waiting for you…”
I was walking back home with my head down, looking at the pebbles on the road. I heard someone shouting “watch out”, and next moment a vehicle crashed into me.
I don’t know what happened, but when I opened my eyes I was standing in front of a scenic landscape. To my right I found a person, whom portrayed as if he was waiting for me. I approached him and asked him, “Are you waiting for me ?” he said “Of course yes, you are the one who wanted to meet me, to solve your concern”
I was confused “I wanted? When did I, well instead of saying this, I was curious about the concern of mine he mentioned, I was eager to know what was that. ” I asked him “Which one you were referring to”, instantly replied with a smile on his face “your quest for someone”. I was not sure whether I was curious about it before or not but now, I was all anxious about it. I said “yes yes, I want to know”.
He told me “you are seeing this hill right, start running from here, by the time you reach the other side of the hill, you will know the someone.” He was still saying something I did not pay attention and no sooner I started running.
It was on soft meadows I was running with my shoe on. The way was really beautiful and I was not feeling the strain of running. I ran really hard but haven’t seen anyone till now. I felt for a while “What’s happening? I am not able to understand”. There was black color stone thrown on my face and it broke my nose. I was bleeding like hell and fell down on the floor. I was crying and seeking help. The same person appeared in front of me, I shouted at him “What is this ?”. He said “ you did not listen to me completely, I was about to tell you what’s all going to happen in this journey. You did not listen”.
I was scolding myself for this and requested him to tell me now. He said ”In this journey you will see many shelters. Your journey will complete if you reach any shelter throughout the journey. What will stop you from reaching them is these stones. Black and red stones will be thrown at you the moment you start seeing a shelter. Already you are hit by one, so if two more blacks finds your face your quest will be as it is forever. If you manage to reach anyone of the shelter your quest will end there.”
“I was surprised with the complexity here, honestly I was worried will I be able to reach anyone? I asked him”, is there any help I can get ? “He replied, yeah I will give you a word of wisdom every time you want for 3 times. You have to take one now, as I will not make my presence otherwise.” I was convinced and felt bad about my mistake. I asked him for the first word of wisdom. He replied “Never presuppose future without knowing present”. I got the message and I started running. The path was getting rocky and my shoe were torn off being old ones. I was running bare foot.
For the first time in this journey I saw a shelter, beautiful covered with golden color grass and I started proceeding towards it. I was able to smell a sweet odor as I proceeded towards this. I saw a red stone coming by and it did hit me. I took the pain as I felt the shelter is worth it. I took similar blows for 3 times and hurt myself enough. Ultimately I saw the shelter nearby and when about to reach I felt as If a bit away. I was surprised but there was no option left other than this. I just closed my eyes for a while and there was a black stone thrown at my face and this time it was a nasty blow. I was bleeding when I say myself and I was in tears. Perhaps when I looked at my foot, I saw sours on them, as I was running bare foot and the season was summer. I was hurt very badly and there was no option to call the other guy for the word of wisdom. He told me, ”Never be in haste”. I again started running and found another shelter almost at the top of the hill.
I was worried if the same thing is going to happen again, yet I started running towards it. The road turned stony and the climate hot. It was as if I was running on a hot pan with bear foot. Blood started oozing out of my feet and I did not stop running. I was exhausted the by the time I saw the shelter 20 ft away. I have taken few plunged towards and to my dismay the shelter disappeared. I was lost and a red stone was thrown at my face leaving a scar on the fore head. I was upset and almost at the stage of giving up, I was feeling as if I have lost in my life demeaned its purpose. Then I realized I have my last chance of word of wisdom. The moment I thought about it, he said, “The next shelter you find will be the end for your quest. ”
Well, I did not believe it blindly this time, I gave a thought to myself and said, I will give the best of mine for this. I recollected the first words he said. “by the time you reach the other side, you will know the someone”. I was focused this time. I was just looking at the way trusting that rest will follow. I saw ups and downs along the way and few luring shelters trying to distract what I have thought. I did slow down a bit but I became conscious the very next moment. I was clear what I want to do, reach the other end of the hill. There were few stones thrown at me but I managed to escape them.
I went down the hill I was able to see the road ending.. I was nearing what I want to. I saw a shelter to my right this time.. I did not stop as I wanted to complete the run. Surprisingly the shelter moved along with me and was at my right always.. I closed my eyes and started running.
I felt I reached the end of the road and I did. I had a deep sense of accomplishment. Though I didn’t get anything till now, it was a sense of possessing something that was making me happy. I was very light at my heart and thoughts and was feeling every moment precious. No wound did pain me now and no scar is burning. I was all happy to be there. As I observed my surroundings I found myself in front of “the” shelter. I walked in feeling fatigue and fell down on the bed over there.
I felt the warmth of a palm on my forehead and opened my eyes. It was her. As I opened my eyes, she said “Get well soon, I am waiting for you…”
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