Another time I let myself down, every time I do it was for varied reasons, some makes sense, some doesn’t. however I have to bear the pain. I was cursing initially crying the mid way and when ran out of tears started thinking. I sat on the sea shore nearby my house and looking at the horizon. I was lost in thoughts and really in deep reflection, who can make me really successful? Really . The hands under my chin moved towards the respective legs and I found few pebbles to my side. I opened my eyes and I saw something was obstructing my sight, something like a thin layer of Ice. I got the feel as if my answer is behind this obstruction. Not sure why I was feeling. I made all effort to penetrate my sight through it and no help.
When I tried to move to my side and peep through I noticed these pebbles. I took a pebble and through at it. It gave me a slight noise as if something broke. Well this did not clear the site. I started throwing these marbles at the ice, slowly I was seeing some shape behind it. Well I was assuming that it was the answer for my question, I got a little aggressive and started throwing vigorously. After a little time I got real frustrated with my state and with my effort to break the ice, I closed my eyes and shattered the stones at it.
While throwing at it, I was recollecting all the moments where I went low on confidence and felt need for a support to make me successful. I was dazed at the recollection of these moments and threw the stones more fatally. The same old question was floating through my mind, I gave a forceful throw and I couldn’t find another pebble next to me. At once I heard a big noise. I opened my eyes there was a bright aura in front of me. It was difficult to see, but I was making a constant effort. When I made myself ready to see it, the aura became a little dull, it flashed a face in front of me and it vanished. I observed the flash closely, and I was comprehending the features and the face. To my surprise it was my own sketch over there.
I could not really get the meaning of it. I was trying to understand how can I help myself? With a profound thought I realized I need to break the ice between me and myself. To empower me with my own confidence. Once I made this statement for myself, I understood why the aura flashed my face to me. It was trying to tell me I am the one who will decide my destiny where to go and where not to go. What to choose and what not to choose. To succeed or not to succeed.A definite lesson learnt to make the indefinite work my way.
I shouted in fulfillment and shook my body. I found myself lying on the beach, in front of me was the beautiful horizon. I learnt the lesson and left the message, “Thank you Ice breaker” for the horizon.
