I wanted people to feel the belongingness to me. I wanted to see my kids happy. I let them discover what I invented. I was all smiling even when they called it invention.
They were my kids and i had to care for them. I gave them comforts. I let them enjoy in feeling the association to me.
At first it was so, every thing they drew out out of their life they offered it to me by will, they called it the greatness of our father.
I smiled and said it is your ability and I am happy for it. Though I know it is because of me they did everything still I gave the credit to them. Which dad doesn't want to praise his kids.. I am not exception.
They invented money, I said be careful. They invented liquor, I was worried.. They invented many things which troubled me, yet i was trying to care for them.
Some listened, some did not. By virtue of their actions i had to change the way I operate. From care taker i was forced to a role of Observer. well, Initially i was observer also, instead the actions of my kids portrayed me as care taker, as when you act the way I defined by yourself, I am the care taker.Else you are living at your own will.
Well this will went worse and my kids changed. I don't have emotions neither pain. I started feeling sorry for my kids.
I love them, irrespective of what ever they do, that love undergoes different personifications and takes different forms. As you know, punishing a kid when he does a mistake is also out of love, my love is there for their prosperity... I am unconditional when it comes to anything :)
Some of my kids realized the change, how the way it was and the way it is now. They were not able to connect to me, feel my presence in them.
Though they were longing for me, I could not really help them as the mind was already polluted.
out of that mid state they were not able to see the purity in me. I made a decision, to help these people.
I formulated a human feeling called hurt, that generates pain in mind and loneliness in thoughts.
I formulated it in such a way that they can feel the ultimate support for them in me. Look at me in the distant skies and cry. I designed the so that they get the pollutant inside them out.
I called it repent. Many started going through this experience and it was good work for me to look at all of them and take care of them again.
once we all were sitting and they were talking to me about the way they changed. They were saying the way we could connect to you in sorrow we cannot connect to you while in happiness.
I corrected them, at the starting point you need this to connect to me, but once you connect you don't have anything except me and happiness, for the fact that I am happy love personified.
I want my kids to start the journey of connecting to me. "This is Why I gave Hurt"
